June has always been special to me, main reason because it is the month of my birthday and when i was in school because it meant vacation and summer. Overtime as i have grown older, June has been bittersweet, the past couple of birthdays have been days i would rather forget because i spent the whole day crying and i was a mess. Now i have come to a point in my life in which i understand i have control over my being, every emotion, every situation, every thought, everything. So this birthday i will be at peace within myself and everyone whom i had trouble with in the past years. My father being the main reason but now that i have forgiven and forgotten i will be feeling completely different. And as ridiculous as this sounds and almost embarrassing, my past lover was another reason for all my sadness but that is also a case closed and forgiven and forgotten. So now that i am free from all chains that held me down for so long i will be enjoying my 18th birthday as a celebration for my growth not only physically but mentally and spiritually. I have come a long way, only the homie and i know. It is not over, it is only the beginning but i am here and i am ready.